Better
I'm feeling so much better than I did yesterday. The yoga, writing that post, a long phone conversation with a friend and the sweet support I always find in my husband are all so magically healing. I am so grateful for these things.
Now I'm getting ready to volunteer at the after-school program I went to last week. I haven't written about it yet, but I will. As I take my deep breaths, I'm feeling good and trying to channel the spirit of Ms. Kathleen to help me connect with these outrageously cute and challenging kids.
More laters.
Oh! I almost forgot-I FINALLY got my period and am started Clomid por la manana. Wish me luck!
posted by jane at 10:56 AM
3 Comments:
of course, i read the previous post first. and rambled.
sorry.
maybe i should buy some duct tape for my mouth.
hee.
5:07 PM
no! you were right on! i didn't see the comment until just now.
that really is how it is-the building up until something has to be said. i feel it a little more each time until last weekend, i was almost, almost there. she knew i was angry and she didn't drink with us the next day (not that she didn't when she got home later).
i know there must be a constructive way to go about this but i'm afraid it will come about in a more human, less neatly done way. probably with yelling and tears. and maybe that's better, who knows.
she's coming to visit in a couple of weeks, with my concerned yet in denial and enabling stepfather. also with my 13 year old brother, so i have to be somewhat careful. but that could be the moment when this all explodes. there will be relief in it, i know that.
i'm the one that's rambling here. your words are always helpful and so welcome. thank you!
8:38 AM
maybe you could have a mediator. someone who you both know but can stay calm.
good luck to you, girl. it is so hard.
sending you strength in your voice and in your heart.
xo
10:11 PM
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