Are you doing this on purpose?

So...it's 15 dpo and I haven't gotten my period. Before we all get too excited (I'm talking to you over there), my temperature this morning was nothing to rave about. It spent three days at 98.3, then 2 at 98.2, and now 2 at 98.1. Going down, not so good. But I was surprised that it's still 98.1. Last month on this day, it took a nose dive and my period started.

I know my luteal phase can vary by one or two days. I know this. But what if tomorrow my temperature went up? That would be interesting. And hysteria producing.

I was really depressed yesterday, but feel much better today, and not because I'm hopeful about being pregnant in any way (but I am a little hopeful. Dammit). I feel premenstrual and the temps don't lie. Do temps ever go up after looking like this is it? I have to think of a google-sinct phrase for that.

My husband is working late and I'm curled up on the couch with a blanket and the laptop. I didn't even pretend to write today and it felt honest. I'm not going to beat myself up, at least not today.

Let's save my period and self-beat down for tomorrow.